Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Acceptance

          What do you do when you have no idea how to fix what's been done?  What do you say when there's nothing else left you can say?  You wish that you could go back in time to take back words you said, things you did just to make it right again. But life isn't a time machine.  You can't go backwards, only forwards. 

          Still it doesn't change the fact that you want what you had back.  You'd do anything to get it back.  That warm feeling in your heart, that smile on your face, you'd do anything to have it back.  But its not up to you, its up to fate.   

          Blinded by the tears in your eyes caused by the pain in your chest that paralyzes and consumes your thoughts, the only way to try to deal is to remind yourself that it is up to fate now.  Que Serra, Serra.  Whatever will be, will be.  

          Though fate doesn't prevent you from breaking down in a crowded club because in spite of being surround by so many people you feel so alone.  It doesn't make it easier to keep it together at work because your mind can only really think about the one person you no longer have.  And it definitely can't hide the hurt and emptiness you feel in your heart that shows on your face even when you try to muster up a smile.  Nope Fate can't even stop the tears from running down your face as the radio plays songs that remind you of him. 

        I had a great thing and I lost it.  And now there is nothing left for me to do but accept it.     

2 comments:

  1. You write so well... so easy to relate to. I love it!

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  2. Thanks! That means a lot :)

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